growing up i never really thought about what i did, what i said or the repercussions that those actions would leave. as an adult i still have the tendency to do that but i at least stop and think about it for a minute or two now. just while writing this, i think back about some of the things i've done in random places across the country and think, "holy crap....i probably could've been really hurt just then or died".....sorry mom.
maybe it is all in your mind. as far as physical actions, i never thought about getting hurt. i never let that fear set in. i trusted God, i trusted in the abilities He gave me, in the equipment used. verbal, now that's a different story. i have this thing about speaking my mind at the most inopportune times. call it passion, call it attitude, call it whatever you want, call it getting me in trouble. i'm at that junction again in life, do i speak or do i hold my tongue? the words i say would fall on deaf ears so i fail to see the point. i wonder how many bridges i could burn by throwing one little match?
several years ago incubus had a song titled "consequence". here's the chorus,
"you better think fast! 'cause you never know what's coming around the bend. you better not blink! for consequence is a bigger word than you think. it's bigger than you or me." how true is the second sentence? you really don't know what's going to happen next. i'm a firm believer in karma, what goes around comes around....again, call it whatever you want. i stand firm on the decisions i've made in life. i would be a different person if i chose any differently (i like me). i've dealt with the consequences of my actions and i have reaped the rewards for others. i just turned 32 and i can only pray that with each year that passes i get a little bit wiser in my decisions.
